You see, you cannot see.

"You cannot see what is going on inside my head. You cannot see what is going on inside my body. I see this as a plus - all good.

If you could see what was going on inside my head - the verbal diarrhea - oh it would be very, very bad.

If you could see what was going on inside my body:

1. it would appear grotesque, a major battle ground, cell against cell, body attacking it's own body - a very frustrating, confused battle where no one wins (or something like that)

2. you would feel sorry for me and I don't want your pity.

This way at least if you meet me in the street you will not know, I can pretend, keep up appearances. You see I am not my disease.

If you know me you may be one of those who sometimes say "Hi, your looking good".

I'm not my disease. "

This was my very 1st post back in 2007