Wipe the slate clean

YEAH! It's a NEW YEAR!

What would you do if you had no pain or health concerns, no money constrictions?
Think for a moment...
What do you really want to do?

AHHH! I've turned into my grandmother!

I wake up every morning and the first thing on my mind is a cup of tea.
I walk down stairs, get out my painkillers and make a delicious cuppa.

When I was a child and I stayed over at my grandmother's house, I use to think it was peculiar that anyone would get up and take painkillers before the day even started.

As a child I had no concept that pain was something that you could awake with every day. I had no concept that there were conditions that caused you to be in pain. I wish I had asked my grandma why she took them so I would know what pain it was? I often wonder, as I take my painkillers every morning, if she had the same pains as me?

Tinnitus embarrassing teens

I'm not much fun at parties

Apparently I talk really loud at parties according to my teenagers. That is caused by the constant ringing in my ears. (It is really embarrassing to teenagers who don't give a damn that you have tinnitus or that they may get it soon if they keep listening to loud music on earpieces)
Standing at parties, in the festive season, increases my pain. You are not a very good party guest if you are in pain.

Sitting for too long at parties makes me really stiff and I cannot get up out of the chair. This is not a good look in one so young; it seems to be accepted in frail 80 year olds but not young robust people.
I end up being the kitchen staff as constant doing and moving works best for my body. If I join in a conversation it is not very long before the pain makes me need to move on and I look quite rude and uninterested.
I use to love to dance at parties but now know that if I do my pain will be extremely bad for 3 days after.
I and many others in pain, may be the one offering you the hors d'oeuvres, making a pleasant comment and moving on. But only if the plate is not too heavy!

I started this blog back in April 2007 when I did not know the full extent of what was wrong with my body. I was searching and angry. So what has changed??
I am rushing out the door to do a hundred things for Christmas but will be thinking about this so I can post it here. In the meantime I hope your Christmas is not too hectic and you get to share the love.